Spirit- Now Body and Mind

Here is what I have been thinking...Off topic a bit, but so is my whole blog if you scroll through it. August of 2007 was a Spiritual Awakening for me through the Heart Change program and a lot of "AHA" moments have been crossing my path ever since. I feel like that journey is taking the course it should at the pace it should, although I would like it to be faster at times. Nonetheless, I am in a pretty good place spiritually, not being satisfied, a bit hungry, questioning the why without fear, finding others that do the same etc...and more importantly, happy when the spiritual is discussed with depth and promise with God's people.
So here is my current hang-up...Mind and Body. I feel like I am not even begun to bring them into focus of what I would be content with for myself. The spiritual has helped with the mental at times, so I do not want to disregard any of the benefits from that. I think Albert Einstein said it best. "The world we have created, is a product of our ways of thinking. It cannot be changed until we change those patterns." Albert Einstein
He also said that you cannot fix a problem with the same consciousness that created it.

Here is a good article about changing the mind:
http://www.marianneclyde.com/change_the_way_you_think.html

When I read an article like this I personally am struck with the thought that I am a victim in my own thinking. I have to blame something or someone!
How can I not? The cultural influence, advertising, media, even friends and family with life experiences have instilled many of the models attributed to my thought process. Lets not forget the churches influence and it's fair share of added drama, guilt, blame and shame on top of all that. Bottom line, my way of thinking is directly or indirectly influenced by lies or truth, but for me, mostly lies. So like Sherlok Holmes, I will be spending the rest of my life throwing out what does not fit. "When you have eliminated the impossible, whatever remains, however improbable, must be the truth."
I have isolated My mind problems down to three things: I feel disrespected or ineffective or unrecognized.
All of those seem to battle one another at any given point or time during the day and reflect a negative attribute probably attributed to a lie that I believe about myself. Enough said- I am on the right track with this and I need to acknowledge it through someone somehow. "Yea therapy"
Now to the body_ Athletic,strong, healthy, and able to meet my own expectations. I am sure I have lowered some of them(expectations) over the course of time. But why? I want my new mind and spirit to be comfortable in the earth suit it adorns. I need to feel comfortable in my own skin. Run, Bike, Basketball, Soccer, Volleyball, Water sports etc...
I want to enjoy these things the way God would like to enjoy them through me.
I see Him as living through me my life experiences. I don't want to look back and say I wish I would have tried...... and Him say, "ME TOO, that would have been fun."
Lately I have not had much physical energy to much of anything even if it is fun and exciting for me to do normally. Of course I refer to past normal...
My first initiative...A good pair of jogging shoes, a half hour up the street and back by time watch, a limp home and collapse with some sort of ointment and hope that my wife will rub it on me before I pass out in the evening.
Wish me luck...
PS. Buy stock in absorbine Jr, Ben Gay, Icy Hot, and Band Aid. I here they may be the next big movers.
PDR